Sunday, November 29, 2020

He Lives!

First of all, I want to thank every person who took the time to tell me that they were wishing me well or praying for my recovery.

Next, I want to let you know personally, that if you didn't, couldn't or wouldn't take the time to show me the barest of compassion in my time of need, that you need not bother with me anymore.  11 months was more than enough time for you to pray on it and rightly choose to contact me.

Most importantly, here is where I am right now....

Surgery took greater than 12 hours.
I was in the hospital for nearly 3 months.
I have been undergoing therapy for many months.
I am "better", but I am not 100% me.
The surgery got 100% of the tumor AND it was NOT malignant.
However, the tumor was pressing up against my brain stem.
So as a result, I'm left with some "Vestibular" problems.
I am spending far more time than I'd like, recuperating.

With that said, I continue to be excited whenever I get a message from one of you.  I continue to get excited when new people come and discover what I'm teaching here.  I continue to put together my teachings and continue to write blog posts.  As a matter of fact, I started writing a VERY COMPELLING blog post back in November of 2012 and only TODAY was I able to put the whipped cream and cherry on top.  Be on notice, my next Blog post may be my most MIND BLOWING teaching to date.  It took me 8 years to be able to find the smoking gun, the one thing that makes the teaching not only mind blowing, but 100% irrefutable as well.  Remember, if it's not Biblical, it's bologna!  :P

If you've been waiting for me to come back and post, here I am.  Please send me your well-wishes, they mean the world to me.  All I can say, is God is indeed GOOD.  I honestly didn't think I'd be here today, I really thought that God was done with me.  All I can tell you, is I put it all in His hands and I told him that whatever His will was for me, was ok with me too.  I never once prayed to live (or die), I only prayed that He did with me what He needed to do.  Some of you might think that's silly, but the rest of you will understand full well that it's HIS WILL that we wish to be done and not our own.  Amen?  :)

So get ready, what may be the single biggest post of my life is coming next!

Thursday, January 2, 2020

I Have a Brain Tumor

Please excuse the lack of luster and perhaps spell checking as well.
It's taken me several days to be able to gather this much strength to write.

I was diagnosed with a Posterior Fossa tumor 10 days ago.
I have multiple MRI / CT scans scheduled for the 7th & 8th of January.
Pre-Op surgical testing scheduled for January 24th @ 10AM.
Neurosurgery is scheduled for January 29th.  It is a 6-8+ hour surgery.

Images from first CT

Images from MRI

With that said, the tumor continues to press upon my brain stem and I am in bad shape.
(the lower image shows the Tumor pressing on the brain stem)
(the other white areas are cerebral fluid channels)

If you know me personally, you know how to reach me directly for more information.
If you don't, there is an area on every page allowing you to email me directly.

For anyone who would see this and desires to pray for me, thank you.
Please pray that it's God's Will for me to recover or His Will for me to come home.
Because those are what I'm praying for.

If you pray for my family, pray for them in earnest.
They have not the love of God, nor the Son, but only of things of the world.

If I recover from this I am going to be moving in a new direction.
There's another story intermingled among the story of divorce and staying with an unbeliever.
I've been living that story for the past 12 years.  Quietly.  Silently.  Prayerfully.  Sadly.

For those of you who know how to raise funds, my family will need help paying the bills.
I have insurance, but a high deductable and a whole new year to start paying it again.
Anyway, that's all I'll say about money.  If you've known me for more than a minute, then you
already know I've said more about money just now than I have in years.

To those I know and have individually interacted with in this life:

I love you each and individually.
You have been important to me.
Giving you my time was a pleasure.
God knows that you were a blessing to me.

ihs : swak